i feel weird, i need to work and i have little money left to live for few weeks. my communication skills are none.
yesterday i returned to dorm after taking entry exams again,,,. and there was a crowd of people, an ambulance and some guys performing mrt on some guy. i thought that some random dude just had a heart attack, but figures out its a guy from our dorm who decided to jump out the window from 6th floor.......... after failing the exact exam that i just took. sweet.
ok, i need to work now. finals are soon and i've got NOTHING hahahahahahaahahahhaahhaahahhahaha
okay, so, this is my first blogpost on here. when i write this, this site is very raw. and its probably going to be raw for long, because i know only basics of html and itll take time for me to learn things.
right now, i live in a shithole with the name of Uzhhorod, in a box room in dorm. I fucking hate it here.
i am stressing lately. so much that i literally started to go bald.
i have a shit ton of work (also commissions) to do in a month before the academy finals and i literally do EVERYTHING but working. im overwhelmed. i fucking hate capitalism.
living is pricy and i am struggling to figure out how to live at all, i just turned 18 like half a year ago and what the fuck am i even doing?? though ngl i am doing SOMETHING right because i literally have the best girl in the world
also, even though technically i am a student rn, this is kinda a gap year for me. because i am leaving this shithole for another shithole (but which is probably better.)
i need to learn how to make money and pay for my academy debt next year and to rent an apartment.
but it figures out americans are poor now too and dont want to pay me so i can make furry porn for them???? fuck donald duck.
fuck russia. fuck capitalism. fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
i want to finish my crust pants, i want to make a game, i want to make art, i want to
but i'll figure it out, though. my girlfriend supports me. i support myself (i try to), so lets do this shit!!!!!!!!